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Thursday, September 29, 2005

bloGger dOwn?? my blog gOt viRuS???

wah liao eh...damn suay lo...suayness draw closer to me nowadays...i wake up early in the afternoon(28/9)..hehe ard 3pm++ log into my blog...nthing come out and now my post was like in the mess!! all my shortcut buttons in post was VERTICAL instead of horizontal...toopid lo...damn pissed off...difficult to post somemore i like to change abit colour here and there..lagi worse lo..( chow ah mui's created this word)....y suayness come??? yesterday..miss wee sms n need a listener and i just wake up and blah~ blah~ then finally made up my mind going to meet her cos both of us really...broke liao..so decide to meet at jp for drink and have a heart talk then typical vainpot of me got to prepare mah...bathe..dress..and by the time i get ready...miss wee missed call 2 times and a sms saying that " hey gal..sorry i can't meet ...got to rushed home...really sorry.." ( don't be mistaken i'm not blaming you, miss wee..but my suayness)..oh gosh! i have already prepared liao next! once again...blog kanna virus or what..cant log in..difficulties in posting...haiz...then mouth itchy asked miss wee out at 1 am+++ then again..need an hour++ to prepare to meet miss wee and by the time tu here tu there predicted time is 2.30 am to meet her and she need to be home by 3 am++ then for wat?? and then we arranged it on other day...i suggested it..(kindof no fate to meet... ) : )haiz...pao tang again!!! haiz....and supposely my frenz jio clubbing at black and cos no $$$ i don't want then chow ah mui want to sponsor me but cos of paiseh so didn't on them..then think here think there..and finally can go black liao..they are not going....damn fucking suay lei...but...on top of all.....i had a wonderful chat with my almost 10 years fren...peikuan i know if you are reading this you must be scolding me toopid lei..calling me this...well...that what i used to call you in pri sch...thinking back..time really passes fast...oh yo.. no longer that young anymore...also not too old...haha... ya..back to the topic....being soooo bird at home...i read through my list of fren blog... suddenly saw my name in hers...kindof touched...really wanna cry...happy crying like that...despite of neglecting her...not a sms in a month...she still treats me as important as before...while me..such as disgrace!!! nah!! X: but sometimes do wanna give her a call as we have a friendship for almost 10 years..sometimes really do miss her ( one thing that is really from the bottom of my heart) but though 10 years the distance between me n her also like 10 km far apart lei..so..i don't have the courage...happily chatting with her....teeling her about our days in pri sch...meeting out...my reason for not meeting her....and of cos!!! my criticisms...( true also lah).....i told her i feel zi bei when i go out with her..cos her frenz all so chio and pretty de..and me fat but ugly lo....jialet...like that really..wei qu her...and now gonna share wat both of us do during pri sch days...wahaha...( jun don't kill me ar...) is shuqun is our pri sch...then also nearby my house so..everytime after sch we buy cup noodle and then cheong hot water at my home to eat..slack..slack watch tv..and rushed back...is rushed back to sch for remedial lesson...haha..and no lesson..go her house at boon lay..still remember..we go the boon lay shopping centre NTUC is NTUC hor..buy stationeries...and of cos..good fren mah..so everything must buy the same..same pen same rubber (not eraser) and same same de pencil..wahaha...CLIMAX: both of us got very funniest and malu kindof habit to mention here....is....da-dang!!! we wrote letters to each other though both of us were sitting right to each other...laugh ba... bo liao...right? but hey..that was quite 'in' at that time ok...(pen-pal) wahaha...we both can't talk to each other but write to each other...and everytime got to go NTUC... to stock up new and cute leeter pad lo...wahaha...really miss those days....those funny actions we do.... those topics we said... and i dared to say that is the most innocent, no harm, no jealousy, no evil thoughts and pure friendship...i dared not say now don't exist..but frankly speaking..is hard to find trusty frenz.. or zhi-ji...if yes..there will be no words like backstabber, hypocrites, betrayers!!! right? besides that, we oso go through the same thing...and many things were so very coincidence ! like her....was ah koh 's buddy....and lots lots of things...but me suayness haven gone..so life are different for both of us...she got a good relationship after so many hardships...( i'm not desperate for it...thats an example)

<tO mY 1O yEarS fRienD> .: peikuan aka peijun aka michelle :.

first, thanks..a big big HUGS for you..treating me as your good fren...

ALL THE BEST TO YOU!!!!

remember...we are just a phone call away...ring me up if you need a listener, i will try my best to console as i bad in consoling....

i promise i will meet you real soon..overcome the 'fat' issue

i promise i will treat you same as my other friend..don't worry..

lastly, BON VOYAGE!! enjoy your trip to Bangkok...

got to 'coma' again..after doing mask..

i.miss.you...monkey-face...

sign off ~

Monday, September 26, 2005

yeah...yeaH..yeAH...yEAH...YEAH!!!!

before i start off with my post..really damn pissed off....supposely was a happy blog cos no more paper to go..but toopid error i had to blog 3 times...(including this) kaoz...so sick of it...i was like writing the same thing again and again... finally...no more paper liao..yeah.!!!! so happy..after struggling for sooo many nights...i can continue to 'coma' again...well...'coma' is a word that my dear wee shan uses to describe the word 'sleep' on me...innovative ba?? just because i sleep till late afternoon or sunlight shines on my butt then i wake up lei?? anyway, thanks hor.... before i continue with 'coma' i really got to do something to my face..its condition is getting bad to worse liao lei...many 'da-ge' and 'siao-di' (small and big pimples) are fighting for their own territory on my face liao...help!!! help!!! i think i got to do plenty of masks..( $$$ gone~ )

during this holiday, i need to......

attend ah liang's BBQ (his bird day)
class chalet (yippie)
paint my house ( cos getting older and turning yelllowish)
getting myself a coach for swimming lesson (to pursue my dream of being.....)
meet up with my ROBs friends ( xu xu jiu)

and of cos...i do miss...my group of 6

(left to right) yang yang, lychee, chow ah mui, zinni, (me) , wee san

yang yang you better go that chalet hor or i rob your $$$$...'hiak' 'hiak'
finally, i can feel the class spirit liao..for almost 2 years +++ hope that this chalet will be an enjoyable and unforgettable one... and 1st time class DBA 3A06 is having our 1st chalet on 2nd oct yeah!!!

i will be meeting up with lychee, chow ah mui,and wee san... cos i am giving them an important task to be...." da dang!!! " painter of my house..so touched once i asked only they 'on' me liao...wahaha..please hor..don't fly me kite nor plane hor...i really need 'girlspower' hehe...

sianz..i thought of paying him a face-to-face visit so i wrote to him and asked him about this...cos i'm afraid he might feel uncomfortable so if yes...GONE...if no...YEAH!...(waiting patiently)
after his advice "actually before my visit, you should also think of what to say first cos whenever my family tell you to speak up you will say " ta you bu yao gen wo jiang hua" it is not that i don't want to talk to you but i don't come prepared."
"as for you, there are so many things happening outside, you can blabber about your little sis, bro or your night at zouk or whatever right. so do you get what i mean? grab the chance to speak up if you can don't wait for me cos i'm usually at a loss of words."

i know..actually..i do prepared it the night before but i was too anxious that everything just slipped off my mind lo...and i also hate myself whenever i have no topic with him... and sometimes only 'bye-bye' for the whole visit...i'm really upset lo... so i made up my mind if i have topics then i pay him a visit if not, save the trouble for auntie and uncle...( so sorry..)

yesterday, only the 2 of us, everyone had to attend a dinner at chervon. me n ying got frightened by a balloon!!! yes, a Winnie The Pooh balloon.... (helium type) , that sis bought it for ivan from chinese garden....cos it was bought long ago, the balloon started to deflat liao...and it is so light that it can move with the wind...and it was in the living room and soon it moved slowly from living room to pa's room while i was studying...ying told me she got frightened by the balloon so i told her i was also frightened by it... and told her it moved from living room to pa's room and there she screamed...and i was scared by her loud scream...and both of us squeezed and rushed into her room... later, while i was in my room, ying tried to scare me, she throw the balloon into my room and off the light...and before she could run back to her room..i throw to her and said " look!! the balloon is chasing you!!! " and these went on and on for 4 to 5 times...hahaha...the childish side of me...

i.miss.u.so...much..and.hope.that.your.answer.is.NO...

sign off ~

Friday, September 23, 2005

I KNOW ALREADY OK!!!!!!!

yes...i know i'm fat!!! i know!!! i said "I ALREADY KNOW IT!!!!" THANKS!!! ok!!! can't you just stop saying that??? WTF, can't you just stop it! why must you say it whenever you see me at that KOPITIAM??? i really hate lor...it is not that i can't accept the fact of you saying that i'm fat..but when you say this, have you ever think that saying such things infront of so many of your friends and it is not only once is almost EVERYTIME....do you spare a thought for me...hello? i'm a girl ok... worse!! i'm someone who is easily hurt by people...i know..i know you have a daughter who fare well for exam...whatever..so-called "scholar" so?? so??? i know she has such a great figure..so?? soOoooo WHAT!!! just mind your own business lah!!! hey~! i have been trying really hard nowadays ok..if you are someone who going to hurt me..going to look down on me...or trying to be discouraging...please..get out of my sights...i had enough of all these craps....!!! ENOUGH !!!! well.. friends out there, who are reading this, you may think it's just a small little pea matter but i'm someone who really looks forward for gatherings..especially family gatherings..i love the warmest of BIG family...yet everytime..in such a happy gathering, there sure to be someone who will say and make comments...of cos, i do welcome comments..so i can make improvement..but not those hurtful words..such as " wah...your arms like my thighs eh..."...you know..comments like "hey, your thighs getting fatter or aiyo your arm so flabby ar?" (i'm not trying to be exaggerating but these are some of what people commended) all these i CAN ACCEPT!! really!!! sigh~i really need ENCOURAGEMENT...desperately need some supports from u guys... i know my pa, sis are trying to..but it doesn't help much....

i.know.you.have.been.supporting.me.just.like.i.do.
thank.you..

sign off ~

Thursday, September 22, 2005

iDiOtIc oLd HaG

what a day!!! my house that f**king OLD HAG shows attitude again!!!! shit u lo... if really thinks that u still looks good and have the abilities...by all means, pack ur things and close my doors..and note that...the door will not always open for u ok...so please consider it 1st... there is always a limit to everything...just becos you had tiff with pa, doesn't mean that the whole world offend you....warning:DON'T CROSS MY LIMIT!!! sis, got herself a job from a quite well-known company, after 'nua-ing' at home for almost 5 months!!! haha..pa was happy and wants to have our dinner outside..yet she gave that stupid face..who the f**k you are?? n what kind of attitude you gave? sorry hor we F**k CARE you!!! old hag!!! if i know she gonna be there for dinner..i won't be there...seeing ur face make me so full...feel like seeing a BIG pack of EXPIRED MILK (ps: u think ur bust still that firm...please la..its going 'down towards gravity) mind u..stop wearing those skimpy clothing la...it doesn't portrays your figure or makes you more attrctive..instead your only attract chi-ko pek...remind you is CHI-KO PEK ok?? do you think i am someone who is 5 years back...who will ask you what happened..and coax you?? i guess you still in the wrong channel..please switch back hor...you had spoilt my day!!! pIssssed off~ i admit..i am the one who really gets affected if anything happens at home..and yet you are the one who always creates things that makes me sad!!! ~~i like you!!!!~~

just before i end this angry blog... again!!! argh.. someone pronounced my name wrongly again!! haiz... so sianz...when sis went interview, the interviewer read my name and ying name (while looking at the application form) my name is zhenjie not 'zhen-ji' or zheng-jie' or worse 'zheng-ji'..or watever..this is also why i hate to go clinic where nurses kept pronouncing it wrongly, somemore infront of other patients..aiyo!! just feel like finding a hole to hide my head...and yeah!!! ying's name read WRONGLY too...hahaha..cos she always mocks and giggle when someone has pronounce it wrongly...her is ying shao yet her name was read as..' ying shoes' ??? silver shoe?? wahaha...

off to revision..i received ur letter...
thanks...i.miss.ur.monkey.face..(hee..hee..)

sign off ~

Friday, September 16, 2005

paPa's biRthDaY

guess who's birthday ???

today is papa's birthday...he's so happy!!! and in a very good mood....no grand celebration just a normal cake cutting type...so sis n me went to jp's swensen to bought a cake for pa...know where we celebrate his birthday? at KOPITIAM.... 3 of us treat him eat 'zi cha'..knowing that he's shy that type so sis n me was betting on whether pa wanna bring the cake to cut or he wants to cut at home...hehe..'da dang'!!! he wants...to cut at home -_-" ...haiz...so we quickly had our dinner then went back home to cut the cake...hmm....

see pa's face so cute..still closing his eyes though pa's eyes wasn't that big but confirm he close it..next..after 'happy birthday to u' song, as usual he will always ask the youngest to blow candles together....so it will be...'da dang'!!!

see..see..my little ivan's face..he really 'chao ah gua' he everytime must 'q-koon' then sayang sayang then ok one..very 'ah gua'

see his 'ah gua' bin

after sayang sayang he ok liao..really buay tahan lei...
then swensen's cake really 'solid' damn power lei...people wan to buy cake buy from swensen la..damn good, solid til papa having problem when cutting the cake..haha..cute lo..

never give up ! try again..wahaha

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haha..the knife diao on the cake..wahaha..notice his face turn red?

ChIneSe gaRdEn

finally...again..it's another outing for the whole family on tueday...however the gambling queen's role in need so auntie went to play cards wif don't know who...(don't bother) so she didn't go wif us..argh!! it doesn't mean that without her mean no fun!! but i just wan pa to be happy as his birthday falls on today...at first me n ying don't really wish to go cos this year's theme wasn't nice..it's booooorrring..n no cute..cartoons...haiz..but want pa to be happy n sis keep 'po lo so' then off we go to chinese garden..though its booorrrring but we still enjoyed..when we reached there, it wasn't crowdy..no one wants to take photos..then only..when we are going home...haha..

the 4 of us..see ivan sleeping again..aiyo..spoiler..( is there such word?)

the 4 of us smilling happily..see i hate myself..not photogenic nor can smile nicely on pics..yucks!!! and ying was sitting on my leg.. as if i don't feel any pain..

happy 4 of us..too bad sis not in this pic..so du never think of asking people to take for us..

(dreaming again...??) notice a black shadow ? haha not 'ah mui' hor..it's me wahaha..but focus on those lighting n fairies...how i wish i'm one of them so oriental...

again..another ugly pic...next one look better..

sometimes i really wonder must i really take pics in the dark then i look nicer..argh!! really sad la...just like what people always tell me don't worry that you will be rape if you are going home late cos once they see your face they won't want to..(turn off~) unless...they covered ur face..sad la...

revision....
i.miss.u.my.dear.fren...

sign off ~

Sunday, September 11, 2005

sAtUrDaY niGht @ cluB mOmO

yeah! finali..NO MORE PROJECTS!!!! today, everything was planned at the very last minute..like me n sis went to town..we were watching the sickening dead bored 'zhen qing' then sis asked whether wanna catch a movie so there we go to the town...we reached around 8++ that...argh...i really hate to squeeze with the crowd..but too bad..cos there is contraints so got to take mrt train..there was this fucking idiotic guy who really 'erxin tai lam lua' lo..when the train stopped at orchard, this toopid guy thought that this place a ghost town ar...please lo..sure will have people to get down one wat..don't know what the fuck he 'gan chiong' wif...he kept squeezing and trying to get to the door..yet the train hasn't stop lo...i was angry and pissed off cos he touched my butt twice lo..yucks!! 'erxin' guy ! ! ! ! next after meeting frenz at spinelli again..last min plan...off we go to momo...experience the ambience, loud music, crowd, pretty babes and muscular hunks..one of them was robin leong..woo~ so man~ perhaps, at this moment, im quite into ktv, so such activity..makes me feel so bored..well..i did enjoyed but not that much la... before the lights on..around 2++ we went home le...really bored ar..

after much thinking.. still think that he suits me best haha...never...didn't wan to pray hard on any..but just the same old goal..and same direction..since i have made up my mind and i should be able to take any hard core and any pressure..just see how it goes....

miss.u....

sign off ~

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

3 DayS woRkinG in cOmeX @ sUnTeC

aha~ i was excited..nervous..anxious..looking forward to this job..though it was only 3

days but it was my 1st time working as FLYERER..hehe... Day 1 ...my mood was spoilt by an idiotic, arrogant and disgusting creature!!! when we went into the store to put our bags, she was there too...then just becos we didn't close that door, she starts to say "please close the door whenever you open, cos there are so many people walking in the hall and they might just open and take the things.." well...it is just a common and normal way of saying... but this arrogant creature said these to us in that kind of tone..oh gosh!! she thinks so highly of herself meh?? just becos she is one of the lao jiao there meh..i guess should be l** jiao la...and somemore who asked her to bring LV bag and still afraid of being stolen..but i must admit that she quite pretty.... now i really believe that saying of " No one is perfect" haha..thats why this pretty lady here has a brain full of SHITS!!! then we started to give out flyers.. xinni and yan yan were also there to so-called visit us..haha..at first, i was abit 'pai seh' to give out..as some people don't even bother to take a look on the flyers...haiz..after a few hours, the enthusiasm towards this job has go off...and grumbling started...i started to 'snake' by going to toilet..walking and finding chris..then i realised that wow~ she's more 'tua gong' lo... she 'snake' throughout and even went for dinner before we receive our dinner..hehe..first time in work i'm so slack and 'snake' lei. quite enjoying ... Day 2, something happened in the toilet...i think this was an unforgettable one..shock of my life lei...again..i 'snake' to toilet..n the toilet was really crowded...after my turn i was tidying my hair infront of the mirror, 1st, i heard the sound of flyers dropping onto the floor..next a loud "PONG!" sound..n the moment i turned..a girl was lying flat beside my foot...really scary lo..she fainted right beside my right leg..i bent down shaking her talking to her but no response n still black-out..another gal was helping too.we failed to pull her up...i kept shaking her arm hoping that she could response but...suddenly, something got into my mind..i remembered in tv and newspaper, paramedic always warned not to anyhow move people who had fall or fainted...then so toopid me..just quickly put my hands off her..after a few seconds..i tried to call her again..moving her hair aside trying to look how she was...then i saw her face ...was scratched..bleed..as the floor has those mat to prevent ppl from slipping off...just before the gal, who was helping me, wanted to call ambulance the fainted gal moved and she seems like want to get up so we helped her up...next she gave me another shock by spitting sweet into the basin...whew!! i thought it was her teeth..as she spit..her mouth was bleeding...and underneath her nose, her skin was like dropping r dangling...i could feel that pain....my hands was cold..trembling as well...after that i still offer to bring her back to the hall as she is also one of the flyerer but she rejected my help... i also met a few friends..one of them was peiqi... she was ipod flyerer.. haha.. what a coincidence! i thought the first day i saw her, she was shopping in the food fair ..who knows she is also working there ...hehe... we chat for awhile outside the hall..like nobody's business..the same old way of chatting..those 38 patterns..hahaha..next is the 'snaking' time again!! me n chris went to food fair..walking around..touring inside..then Day 3, the same kind of working attitude but just that having ache in arms..legs..especially my knee caps..haiyo..unbearable pain..grumbling to kq n chris..3 of us..keep disturbing one another by pinching each other's muscle..arms...n joking that when sch starts on mon.. others...n we might noticed that we have one big n one small muscle..in our arms..whaaha...it's pity that i didn't take any photos..so i can't post any..eeEE..all blames to my FATTY...BUBBLY face..so afraid to take any snaps....

searching.for.my.self-esteem..
focus.on.abilities.rather.than.on.vulerabilities...

sign off ~